Divorce Support Forums: Long Story- what should I do?

My husband and I have been married 6 years (7 on 9/29) and we have three beautiful sons (5,5,4). For the past few years I have lied to him about the state of our finances. I know I was wrong- but I couldn't stop. I know I really screwed up and have, in fact, lost my relationship and best friend as a result.

The thing is- he hates me and is constantly threatening to take the children away from me b/c I am mentally incapacitated. I have been put on prozac these past two weeks b/c I am having a hard time dealing with what I've done. Today he told me he hopes I get into a car accident b/c my insurance $ would be nice and it would save him the divorce battles. The thing is neither of us will leave the house b/c a) i won't abandon my children and b) he tells me that since he pays the rent he's not leaving.

I really can't afford a divorce lawyer right now, and to tell you the truth, I know that it is all my fault and would just like to try to fix us. We were so happy and I love him. Is there anything I might be able to do to make this work again? Or should I just give up on my marriage and then, what do I do about the kids? They need me- I am the one who has always been there for them (although he is a wonderful father too).

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