chryssy, First of all, my deepest sympathies for you. Second, life is not over. It has only changed. Thats not your fault. Next, you need to find support from any friends, family, neighbors, religious groups, county and state agencies, etc. Try www.iraqwarveterans.org this website might be able to direct you to another organization that fits your situation. This organization also offers some assistance. You can do this. It sounds like you also have children. You can do this for them. Stay strong and you will make it out of this.