I was right where you are now almost 2 years ago..... I was so dam mad that my husband left me and the kids and the bills.....etc.. I mean how dare he? I was a sahm for 12 years, which is what he wanted as well as I, and now I had to go out and get a life on my own. Scarey as hell, but now I feel like I am just starting to live. My lawyer too wanted several thousand dollars and promised me the world. GUess what it cost me $30,000. to get divorced...and I got the short end of the stick.... My point is...stay focused. Except what is happening to you, get counseling if possible. Surround yourself with a strong support grooups of friends and family and us. That is how you will get through this. It sucks, it really does....but you need to focus too. COme here and vent and get advice...that is what this place is for. I am sorry circumstances have brought you here, but you will make it threw this...you will....