Divorce Support Forums: divorce or not to?

I'm tired of him not hearing me, I know it was not the best choice to through D word there and there, but if person promises you to make a change - let say not to lie, and it goes on and on - finally you go to the limit, that what happened in our marriage. And I don't paint myself as an angel either. But since I'm direct and can not tolerate dishonesty I expect same from my partner. I've lost trust in him, he doesn't trust me .
And yes, he already served me with papers, I already have my appt. w/lawyer set up, but I just need some thoughts from others , and my heart is breaking, I thought I'd be way stronger at this situation, but appears to be oposite, I'm scared . But again - I could not go that low and sign a postup, and he is PUSHING me to sign. I'm sure would be a question why I'm so against signing an agreement - just because, like I said, when person had lied numerous times in the past, it makes me think as soon as I'd sign he would go forward with divorce at some point anyway.
He wants to purchace a very expensive house in the area we live, and has a successful business, so I feel like he is concern only about how to protect the money, he doesn't talk about any counceling , it would be possible only when I SIGN a postnup.
It's a mess... We divorcing just because I do not sign, all about money. Kids - they absolutely support me and when he pushes me to sign - they are absolutely stunned how their father is over protective and hungry for his money. I don't think they even going to miss him a lot...
Thank you all for your advices, I appreciate that.

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