"the OW texting him was NOT ok when we were back together and working things out...i quit the talking online way before that!!! i completely devoted myself to my husband and our marriage...and he did the same for me...until the OW started coming around where we were purposely...and then started texting him AGAIN...i didn't do anything to deserve that!!!! why are you being so cold?"
Because you are trying to make me feel sorry for YOU, when by rights I should also feel sorry for your husband. To ask me of one but not the other is unfair to him.
"the OW texting him was NOT ok when we were back together and working things out..."
How is this any different than you 'texting' people online while you WERE together?
"until the OW started coming around where we were purposely...and then started texting him AGAIN..."
And if he didn't put a stop to it, then that is HIS fault, not hers, for interfering with the two of you working things out. Forget about the OW. She is a pawn. The real person you have to 'fight' is your own husband.
"i didn't do anything to deserve that!!!!"
You let him go once already. NOW it bothers you?
I wish you the best but it doesn't sound good for you. He doesn't seem interested anymore and you've shown that you've lost interest at times as well.
It's good that you want to work it out, but don't blame it all on him. That's just not the truth. Tell him you've screwed up like he has and that you both have to look at how it affects your kids.
-------------------- I didn't get married to pay CS later in life.