Divorce Support Forums: Living With the Enemy

I may just be venting here because I just had to call the sherrif's dept on my soon to be ex, but I just can't take it anymore. I filed for divorce in February for several reasons including emotional, verbal, mental and occasional physical abuse as well as infidelities (most attempts of which were unsuccessful because they included my younger sister and my best friend).

In any case I am just writing to say that my living situation has become absolutely unbearable! Tonight as I was eating supper I had a plate of food dumped down the back of my scrub top and then jambalaya smeared into my hair in front of my 3 and 5 year old boys. Exactly how much more degrading can one person be to another? The reason we are still in the same house is because both of our lawyers have told us not to leave the house or the children as the other could claim some form of abandonment. This is getting so ridiculous though. My children did not need to see that! We are scheduled for our hearing on Thursday of this week and after tonight I can't wait. You know after all that, he says I am sorry I lost it but "you deserved it!" Then in the next breath he is telling me "I love you."

Is anyone else going through this? I have never called the sherrif's department before because most of his abuse was emotional calling me a bad mother, throwing my keys in the grass so I couldn't find them to go to work, throwing freshly baked cakes into the grass because he thought I was making them for work, or calling my work during Christmas time and threatening other employees with the verbal threat of a loaded shot gun because I had to work and would not be home until 7 am on Christmas morning. Anyway, occasionally he would push or shove or grab me by the arm, but the physical abuse was all inconspicuous. Tonight, however, he just took it too far.

Yes, I want and need this divorce. 7 years of marriage, 3 children, one girl deceased at 12 days and 2 living, beautiful boys is not enough for me to put up with this bull. He keeps saying "when you get a day job, things will be different." I honestly don't think people can change just like that. Look I love the man, but I can't be in love wiht someone who treats me like that. Well, not much else for me to say, just kind of wondering if anyone else has been going through anything similar and how they are coping with it?

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