After considering what you said, I dunno what to think...except that I'm clearly not ready for any kind of relationship at this point.
As time goes by, it is less and less that I still have feelings for my ex, and more that I just plain feel awkward. Almost like I have for FORCE myself to realize I'm single again, and that I'm doing nothing wrong by dating or seeing other women.
It's just had to ACT single after being "taken" for my entire adult life...I met my future wife when I was 18.
I dunno...I know I'm not doing anything immoral or wrong, but just the thought of having to go through the whole dating routine again makes me sick..lol