Divorce Support Forums: Please help me sort. Mixed Messages are the Norm

I really don't get what my STBX is doing to me. It was just two days ago that I began to force myself to step off this emotional roller coaster. But I need help sorting this out... just a little insight as to why- WHY?

To make a long story short, my STBX is married to her job, and that is core of what ruined what used to be a beautiful marriage.

Back in November, I unknowingly began to isolate myself emotionally. By the time January rolled around, she was in tears. She felt like I didn't love her anymore. Arguments were abound. When I realized what I was doing, I changed my tune really fast. Why would I not? I loved her.

We began spending time together and I felt like we were rebuilding. I felt like we had rediscovered the love. Then March, she tells me "I love you, but I don't love us". This was just days after talking about starting a family.

This was March. She still lives in the house with me. She has many places to go, but she doesn't want to move out. She wants to share the same bed with me. As long as it is on her terms, she wants to cuddle, hug, kiss, and even have sex. But if I ask for any of the stuff, she walls up big time, and even gets verbally nasty.

When she leaves in July, she wants to stay friends and even visit (no kids). She even wants to help me pay the bills since we had everything electronically set up through her bank account. WHY?! Hello, she's divorcing me. She's leaving me! How can I stay friends with the person who shattered my heart? I think staying friends would just slow the healing process.

What on earth is going on in her mind? It was only two days ago that I asked her to not sleep with me in the same bed. I can't continue to sleep with somebody I love but cannot hold.

Anybody seen this before? Know what may be going on in her head?

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