Suicide is not an answer. It may seem like one but it's not. Please think of your son and how unfair it would be to him to loose you.
My brother-in-law's father committed suicide this past summer and he was devastated.
I can’t say that I didn’t consider it when I found pix of my wife having sex with someone while she was pregnant with our daughter and her response was, “oh yah, I meant to tell you that I’m leaving you.”
I had no clue she was even cheating on me. Never mind that she was pregnant while she was doing it.
I was devastated but my daughter already had one parent fail her and I’d be dammed if she was going to have two.