OK, my divorce is almost final and I know I shouldn't be dating yet, but I just can't wait any longer.
Having said that, I started dating STBX when I was 13, we got married at 21, and now I am divorcing at 33 b/c he ran off with a 20 year old that was helping with his youth group. He was a youth pastor. I have never dated ANYONE but him. I am honestly excited now that the hurt has faded.
I have gone out with this super nice guy twice now ( no kisses or sex). He calls a few times a week. I like him, but I am not just crazy about him. I would like to go out with other men if the opportunity arises, but it would feel like I am cheating on guy #1. Should I tell him I am going out w/someone else, or just not offer that info? Several friends are trying to set me up with people and I'd like to go, but somehow it feels wrong.
On a side note, even though I am not super crazy about guy #1, I find myself getting really down when he hasn't called in a few days. I check my e-mail way too much to see if he has sent me a message. I have no idea what I am doing. I am sure you all are going to say that I am just not ready to date, but I just am so inexperienced. I really have been feeling great about STBX and am realizing how much better my life really is. Honestly. Does any of this make sense. What is wrong with me?