Divorce Support Forums: Breaking the cycle...

Like just about everything else I do, I jumped into the dating mix full bore. I've been going out on dates a lot. And each time I go out, I'm disheartened about how I feel no chemistry about the person. I'm reminded of how much I miss my STBX.

About two weeks ago, I started feeling down a bit. I was worried that I was going too fast, and needed to slow down. I felt that part of the reason why I wasn't able to form any chemistry with these women was due to me not being over my STBX yet.

So, I kind of stopped dating altogether for a while. Took a short break to kind of get my mind right. And then tonight I went on a date with a girl that was introduced to me by a friend of a friend. We chatted briefly through myspace and saw each other's pictures.

I was actually nervous before the date. My friend had built her up so well, saying how great a girl she was. I was afraid all that would do was set me up for disappointment. You know, someone tells you how awesome a movie is, you go in, and it doesn't live up to the hype?

Well, she shows up and is absolutely gorgeous. Her photo's didn't do her justice. And the conversation was great. She asked me questions about my life, we talked about her. It was a genuine conversation with someone that wanted to know stuff about me. Almost instant chemistry. Everything I was looking for.

We spend about 2.5 hours eating/drinking/talking before she has to go home. We both had a good time and want to go out again.

I feel giddy like a schoolboy.

But I feel scared now. I knew this would happen at some point. I would feel something for someone other than my wife. It's one thing to go out on a date with someone, it's an entirely different beast to go out with someone that you really like.

It's great to finally meet someone that makes me forget about my STBX. But at the same time, it makes me sad knowing that I'm forgetting about my STBX.

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