I am sorry to here about her decision. Divorce sucks no doubt about it. I understand how you feel right now. I was so freaking panicked and I had know idea what my life was going to be like with out her. I had know idea if I could make it without her she was all I knew we practically raised each other. I can tell you that it does get easier. You will have good days along with the bad. Try and not get all liquored up. That will only cause you more grief. Trust me on that one. Try and stay focused on you. Try and stay strong and keep yourself healthy. I would go for days with out eating a good meal. Don't do that! I know your pain.. Sorry things have turned out this way.
-------------------- Don't stop until it sounds expensive!