hey-I'm doing the exact same things-today is horrible-I'm at home with my daughter who's 1 1/2 and I just don't know what to do with us!! I've cried all morning-I miss my husband so much, I feel like I can't even get through the next hour! Then I think how in the hell am I going to get through this forever? Nothing feels like it can make me feel better except for him! I just want him home so bad! I hate feeling like this! I'm thinking constantly of him & wondering does he ever hurt or miss me-last night i called him & just cried to him & poured my heart out & he just listened-never said much-just listened! It was probably the wrong thing to do-I should probably act stronger especially with him-but i just broke-i just had to tell him how i was feeling-i just keep praying he'll change his mind & come back! I cannot fathom life without him! This is making me crazy!!Sorry for the long venting-i just needed to talk to someone who knew how i felt-Thank you!