Divorce Support Forums: Confused, Frustrated...Angry

I've been married for 11 years. My husband is a Gulf War Vet and he's recently - after a long time - been diagnosed with suffering from PTSD.

Anyway...the marriage has been strained to say the least. I don't consider myself a victim of extreme domestic abuse - I know there are many more people out there suffering from far more than I...but he has been physically abusive in the past and more so emotionally and verbally abusive quite often.

The part I don't understand is - he's like a drug - I for whatever reason don't seem to have enough courage to leave him.

Is there somewhere this courage comes from? I've left him before - but caved within two weeks and we were back together.

I feel like such a failure in life...I've married a child...and in some ways it's like I have to keep looking out for him because I feel compelled - as if I took the responsibility so keep going.

I'm just looking, at this point, for some type of emotional support.

If anyone is out there - who can help I would greatly appreciate hearing from you.

Thanks!

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