In a nutshell ... Been married twice before (both wives ended up cheating). I "liked" the abuse so much I married a 3rd time. Wife did 180 shortly after marrying her, had a couple of kids, and then she turned into the b*tch wife from h*ll. Had a few "blow ups" in which she said if we ever got a divorce, she'd do everything to ruin me - including taking the kids away so I'd never be able to see them again. Would she? I wouldn't put it past her. Could she? Yep, thanks in large part to a system and society that would rather judge & persecute me on the spot rather than seeing my POV (although, it's getting better).So, instead of rolling the dice to see what a divorce would bring, I usually bite my tongue, knowing that I can see my kids now and wait for the day I can say hasta la vista, baby.