Thank you all for your support. It's making me feel a little better. It's so hard. Going back to my family would mean that I would also have to put up with them putting me down even more and making me look like a failure because we couldn't work things out. Financially it would be the best decision but spiritually, I don't feel like being around people that are probably going to make things worse. I have the will to overcome my insecurity and I've been listening to so many positive messages and I'm even trying to stay around positive people. Unfortunately my family is not a group of positive people and may not be the best decision. It is so hard....