So here it goes, this might be kinda long but please bear with me. I am 24 years old. I met my husband when I was 17 and got pregnant at 18. I was never head over heels in love with him, but over the years I have grown to love him as a person and respect him as a man. We got married (at my request) when I was 8 months pregnant. Since then we have had another child, two boys, now 5 1/2 and 2 1/2. We have had a content marriage this far and there has been no major issues.
For the past year I have been rather unhappy with our marriage. I have read all the books (mainly Dr Laura's) And when I pretend to be the perfect happy wife my husband is completely oblivious to my unhappiness and life goes on as usual. But I am soooooo tired of pretending that I am in love and happy.
We talked last night for the first time about all of this. And his response was that he does love me, but doesn't want me to waste any more of his time (he said that he is only 25 and is young enough to start over). But I feel so guilty and really don't want to hurt him, what is worse though? He is an amazing father and I know that no matter what happens that will remain the same.
Here are some of my fears... Both of our parents are divorced. Are we just going to be another statistic? My mom has been married 4 or 5 times by now and that terrifies me. How are the kids going to suffer (I remember the pain of being passed back and forth as a kid and watching my parents get remarried and start new families). And most of all I really don't want to hurt my husband. (I remember how depressed my dad was when my parents got a divorce.)
So any advice would be great wether pro or anti divorce. Just looking for some one elses look on all this.