Divorce Support Forums: My first post..so confused

Well, I have never wrote on a post before but I need some support from others that might be going thru the same thing. In a short version my story is this.. I dated my STBX for 6 years (right after I turned 21) and we had our fair share of problems then but after a year apart we got back together and I got preganet. We got married 2 years ago and our son was born 2 months after the weddding. I was not perfect (neither was he) I was so stressed from being a first time wife, mother, going back to school and starting a new job and I know I was not easy to get along with at times. He also had his problems -his fam has no contact with him and my son only met them 3 weeks ago (he is 21/2) Two easter's ago my STBX moved out when my son and I were out of town. Since our marriage he slept downstairs and wanted very little to do with me. Four months after he moved out I discovered he started sleeping with a 22 year old and 6 months later she moved in with him. I want him back so badly. My son asks for him all the time and today we went to go visit his work (we never go there) and our son started crying for his dad. STBX said he had an appotiment and guess who it was?? the girlfriend (who by the way is not cute at all..sorry had to add that) and said he had to go. I called him on his work line and I asked how it felt knowing that your son is crying in the car for you and you have an "appt" with your new girlfriend (8 years younger)? He said he didn't feel guilty at all as he spent the entire day with him and that I should get a clue how other single moms have it much worse than I do. In the back I could hear his boss yelling at me. I know it sounds crazy that I want him back but he really is the love of my life. How can he treat us this way? He sees his son maybe 5 hours a week (we live in the same town) and claims he is always busy. He has no idea how it is to be a parent that does EVERYTHING. I have no family in town and my friends are enjoying there life and say they want to help but usually back out. Any advice?? He says things to make me hang on and then the next day acts like he has no idea what I am talking about and reminds me everyday that I am the reason this marriage fell apart. Did I mention that he had/has? a drinking problem and during our first seperation slept with 3 other people?? Any advice I would appreciate. If not it was good just to vent. I don't want to talk to my family as I still am hanging on we can work it out and I don't want them to hate him anymore than they already do.
Thanks!

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