***I hope all this makes sense, it's bacially just me typing what comes to my mind***
I've been married since I was 19 (I'm 23 now) and he was 21 (he's 27). We dated for almost 2 years before we got married. We have no children, but do have a 2 year old dog. Everything was perfect, until the 3rd year of our marriage when he started working 2nd shift. This left me home alone everynight with nothing to do but get on the computer. While on the computer, I started logging into chat rooms, etc. where I found myself basically lying and telling people I was single. Fast forward to February of this year. I was at work and a very handsome young guy came in and asked for directions. I gave them to him and we talked for a few minutes before he went about his business. I casually said as he was leaving, "Next time you're in town, stop by and see me." Well he did...and the time after that and the time after that and the time after that. Until finally, we exchanged numbers & have been calling/texting since May. He's also started coming to my job on days my boss is gone & I'm alone. For some reason, I couldn't resisit and I kissed him. And we basically haven't stopped kissing (and doing other things) since then. Just this last week, my husband was out of town visiting a friend so I went over to "Mystery Guys" house and stayed the night and we ended up having sex. My husband has no idea. But this morning for some reason, he found his number in my cell phone. I lied and told him I was bored at work one day and it was on the business card he gave us so I put it in my phone and had forgotten to take it out. I told him it's never been used.
I love my husband, but I don't feel like I'm "in love" with him anymore. I'm not happy. It's weird because for the longest time, all I ever wanted was to get married. And now that I am, I want out. I don't know if it's because a lot of my friends are single & I want the single life again or if it's because of the new guy. I know that if I were to end things with my husband, things with the new guy & I would progress.
I'm scared to tell my husband I want a divorce, because I'm afraid it will leave me with nothing. Our house & my car is in both of our names. I don't want the house, but I do want/need my car. All I ask is I get my car, the dog & the few things that were mine going into the marriage.
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