Hello- I think I am in the same boat as you. We were just talking this morning, and I think that we are getting divorced. I have such mixed feelings about it - I haven't been happy for a long time, but at the same time I am so scared. I feel frozen... almost wanting him to make the final decision just so I don't have to. We have no children and no major issues, I guess it just feels like such a loss to me that I'm scared to make that final decision. I also never thought I'd be here. I just hate the idea of being a statistic. I can totally relate to you and hope that you will start to feel more comfortable with your decision.