I've been married for 29 years. My husband wants a divorce - he says that I have always been a pain in the neck - and he wants to start dating. He has been verbally abusive to me throughout the marriage. We have had separate rooms for 10 years, our 2 kids are grown and not at home anymore. I work 10 months a year as a school secretary and also part time as a real estate secretary (7 days a week) He wants to use a mediator and pay me $1,000 a month for 3 years. In spite of all this, I do not want a divorce. I am so used to him, I've known him for 33 years. I am terrified and I am so afraid to be by myself. I'm 54. I have the empty nest syndrome and now this. I miss my children so much. Sometimes it feels as if my heart is just going to stop. I can't sleep or eat. The MD put me on Zoloft, I think it has to be stronger! Please give me some helpful advice???