I have never been divorced before and my future ex has twice. We were only married for four months and I caught him in a lie about health issues he should have told me about from the time we started dating. I told him I would not ask for anything as long as he payed an amount of money to me each month, and for my health insurance. He doesn't want a divorce and says if I file for one then it's my fault and he is not entiled to give me anything. My question is: I don't have the retainer to hire a lawyer and I wanted to know if I can still file my self and not hire one and what I need to do.