I am curious about what others think of my situation...abusive or not. Married over 15 years, together 20. Met college. After my kids were born I think I must have stopped doting on my husband due to demands of kids 11 mos apart. Found out about 1st affair when oldest was in K. Trampy girl out for a man with money. Much younger. He was very remorseful and I was an emotional wreck. COntinued with therapy adn while in therapy it was revealed my husband lost respect cause I no longer "worked." It was decided I shoudl work, which i immediately got RE license to resolve. Didn't make enough money so not good enough...still didn't respect me anymore. Meanwhile found out he was having another affair with even younger (barely legal) girl all the while in counseling. husband swears doesnt want div. Treats me with emotional withholding and verbally accusing me of being lazy not wanting to work, etc. I have tried several other jobs but nothing is "up to my potential enough." Husband says I need job with lots of stress so I can see how stressful his job is, and says he will leave me if I don't follow thru.Says I must not care about our marriage enough to contribute just like he does. I could never make the kind of mney he makes which he acknowledges. He keeps very decent hours but wants me to work 8-5 and commute in to suberbs. Trouble is...I followed him around so much with his career I never got to develop my career. Having trouble seeing how my working full time when we still have elementary aged kids is in their best interest. Due to his past behaviour I am afraid he just wants me to make money to offset what he will have to pay me alimony. He makes very good living. Am I being paranoid? This has gone on for 4 years now so this is a long story short believe it or not.He says my kids are "Off the Tit" now and don't need me so mcuh. they end school at 2 and have lots of extra curriculars that he has no idea involve so much time. He has so much anger in him that he yells and screams at me if I bring up anything bothering me and won't acknowledge my concerns in a normal conversation. He is so exhausting to try to reason with I usually just find it easier to forget trying to rationalize with him.