We seldom notice the love thatís present in painful relationships.
Once two people fall in love, the love is there to stay. You canít push it away even if you wanted to. The excitement and thrill of a relationship may fade but not the love. The love just gets buried by all the upset. We canít see it because of all the anger and hurt. Love is what makes a difficult relationship so painful. If some stranger rejected you or put you down, you wouldnít be so upset. When the rejection comes from someone you love, it hurts. People can love each other and still have a lousy relationship. Some people will fight and get on each otherís nerves forever. Some people do cruel things to each other. This doesnít mean thereís no love.
Now this doesnít make sense. How can you love someone and want a divorce? How can you love someone when you want to have the person shot at sunrise? Weíve been taught all these rules about love. When our actions donít match these rules, we invalidate the love thatís there. So donít listen to what you have been taught. Donít look in your head for the love. Look in your heart. Look under the hurt, the anger and the frustration. You will see the love if you want to. The love is there. It is totally separate from your actions and your feelings. Allow yourself to see how much you still love the other person. Let go of your dreams for how it could have been. Allow the loss. Allow the sadness. Allow the hurt.
As you allow yourself to feel your hurt, the hurt loses power and begins to dissolve. When you fight and resist your hurt, the hurt turns into pain and seems to last forever. Little children are masters at releasing hurt. This is because they are totally willing to feel their emotions. When they feel hurt, they cry. When they finish crying, their hurt disappears. They bounce right back as though nothing had ever happened. So be like a child. Be willing to feel your hurt. Cry if you can. Itís okay. Allow yourself to feel your hurt and notice the love thatís there.
Once you acknowledge the love, the sting of a painful relationship loses power. The sense of invalidation and rejection fade away. You feel better about yourself and better about your life. You also become far more effective in your relationship. Once you tell the truth to yourself about how much you love the other person, you can then interact out of the love thatís there, rather than out of the anger, the resentment and the hurt. When you interact with love, you change what happens in your relationship. The other person then begins to feel safe instead of threatened. Walls of protection come down. Often the fighting stops overnight. Itís hard to fight with someone whoís on your side. Now this doesnít mean you have to live with the other person or agree with that personís actions. There are times when living together just doesnít work. Some people will get on each otherís nerves forever. Itís okay to recognize this and go your separate ways, knowing that under the hurt is the love.
When you operate from the love, your relationship becomes supportive. When you operate from the anger and resentment, you create opposition and resistance. You invite pain and suffering. There may be times when it seems easier to come from the anger instead of the love, but it just doesnít work. When you get angry, look at the truth. You are angry, but you still love the person. Itís okay to be angry. Itís just not an effective way to relate. Remember:
- Itís okay to love someone and still want a divorce.
- Itís okay to love someone and not want to live with the person.
- Itís okay to love someone and be hurt.
- Itís just a matter of telling the truth.
What hurts the most is to love someone and then lie to yourself about it.
Action to Take
- Notice that under all the hurt and upset, you still love the other person. You may not want to live with the person, or even see the person; but under the hurt, the love is still there.
- Let go of your dreams for how it could have been. Be willing to feel the hurt and the loss. Donít fight the hurt or run from it. Allow it. Cry if you can.
- Look beyond the other personís anger and see his or her hurt. Then look beyond that personís hurt and see the love that he or she still has for you.
- Interact with the other person out of the love thatís there instead of the anger and upset.
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How to Divorce as Friends